My Labour Story II

Tuesday, October 20, 2020
"Birth is an opportunity to transcend. To rise above what we are accustomed to, reach deeper inside ourselves than we are familiar with, and to see not only what we are truly made of, but the strength we can access in and through birth."
― Marcie Macarim


Pregnancy


September 4, 2020

It was two days after my first sweep from my doctors appointment - another day that my life was changed.

I read online that it was actually rare for you water to pop before your contractions started, which was true with DK. With DK, my contractions were so intense right away, that I knew I was in labour and this was something I didn't want to happen this time around. Why? Because with DK, my contractions came so fast, I wasn't able to get an epidural right away and had to go through half of my labour without one, then sit through contactions while getting my epidural done after pushing for almost 2 hours! I was desparately hoping that my water would break so I could get to the hospital early enough to get an epidural because let me tell you, pushing out a baby FUCKEN HURTS!

And by golly, luck was on my side, because while I was sitting in bed, trying to get in a nap, my water broke. And it's such a weird feeling. I felt like I was going to pee my pants but I couldn't hold it in for the life of me. Luckily, I made it to the toilet on time but I was definitely debating on if I peed myself or my water broke. I Googled online just to make sure and I called my doctors office and I was directed to go to the hospital. I called Iz into the house (because he was in the middle of working on his car), called my sister-in-law to help watch DK (which was 100% heartbreaking for me because I've never been away from him for more than 8-9 hours) and we went to the hospital!

The hospital was packed and the assessment took forever! When we initially got there, I was given a room in the assessment area right away - they did all the necessary checks before hand and then I was told I needed to wait to see a doctor to confirm that my actually broke. During this time, the nurse was timing my contractions and honestly, I was barely having any. I'm pretty sure they were trying to see if I could wait until tomorrow to go in to labour since it was so busy but it really all depened on how dilated I was! When the doctor came in, they checked my cervix and were surprised I was already 6 cm dialted! They told me I was most likely gonna have a baby and that I would need something to induce me since I wasn't have any contractions, but I just needed to wait to confirm my water had broke.

From the moment the doctor left, my contractions started and they came on full force. My delivery doctor came in and introduced herself and asked if I was going to have an epidural and without hesitation, I said yes! She said she would get someone to check on me and see what they could do. 10-15 minutes passed and my contractions were about 5-6 minutes apart, I was waiting for the test results for my water, I was waiting for a nurse to come in to check on me, and I was just praying I would be able to get an epidural. I remember looking over at Iz and saying "not again, I'm not going to get an epidural again" and he became instantly worried. After about 15 minutes, an intern doctor came to check on me since I was already slightly screaming in pain from my contractions and I told her I wanted an epidural and I needed my IV ASAP (which is needed before an epidural can get done). Iz kept telling her we needed it done right away because I 100% wanted and needed it. The intern doctor told a nurse, which of course with my luck, the nurse didn't rush because I wasn't having any contractions when she checked on me 15-25 minutes earlier. The intern doctor made her aware I was in a lot of pain so the nurse finally came in to check on me and it was at this point I knew it was too late. I wasn't going to be able to get an epidural AGAIN. The nurse realized I was in labour and I told her I needed an epidural ASAP, so she rushed to try to get an IV started for me and then everything else was a blur. I had a doctor come in to check my cervix and at this point I was 8 cm dialted and told I needed to get into a labour room immediately. The nurse was desparating trying to find a vein for my IV and just couldn't get the needle in - she tried twice and no luck. All I remember hearing at this point now is that I might have to start pushing in this little assessment room with 10-20 other pregnant ladies around me .... luckily a labour room opened up and I was quickly whisked away and screaming in so much pain.


Pregnancy


Labour

Now this part is the worst part for me. I 100% did not want to do this without an epidural. Iz fought so hard to try to get me one but the nurse told him it was too late but she could get me have oral pain medication instead. Well, as luck would have it, the nurse forgot and NEVER came back with it. So I had to do this without any pain medication.

I hated it. I told the doctor I didn't want to do it. I knew it took forever for DK to come out and I couldn't bare the thought of having to do it again and knowing this time around I wasn't able to get any pain relief. I was lucky enough to have a doctor that just kept encouraging me and two nurses who were so supportive. They just kept telling me to push when I wanted to give up. I kept asking how much more and they with each contraction she was just closer and closer! When they finally said she was almost out, I told myself "fuck it, I'm not going to fuck around, I hate this pain, I want this done" and just like that she was out. The whole labour from when I started pushing took me about 20 minutes. I was honestly so proud of myself. I remember just looking over at Iz and saying "I did it! I did it without an epidural!" And as soon as they gave me Vida, placed her on my chest, I got to meet another love my life.


Pregnancy

And if you're wondering how Iz took this labour, he was not any better! The nurses had to ask him if he was okay. I don't blame him, it's messy and not pretty! It's funny though because the nurses mentioned Iz looking a little grey, which was the same comment he got when DK was born!

- The Cassie Paige
Photos by Israel

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