2017 to 2018

Friday, December 29, 2017
"The new year stands before us, like a chapter in a book, waiting to be written. We can help write that story by setting goals."
― Melody Beattie

It seems that I have been saying goodbye and greeting each year with a blog post the last 3 years, so I decided I'd keep it a tradition!

2017 Recap

As every year seems, this one was definitely another roller coaster ride for me. It was amazing yet very stressful. It was fun yet frustrating. It was tiring but well worth it.But I mean that's life - that's how everyone's life probably is. Things sometimes get hard but you just gotta keep taking everyday step by step!

Marrying the Love of my Life (Again)
I got to marry the love of my life all over again and this time it was with family and friends, the beautiful white dress and amazing wedding shoes. But the best part of it - I got to tell the love of my life that I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him, all over again. And it's the truth. I cannot wait to keep spending every single day with the most amazing man in my life.

Dealing with the Worst
I've got this notion in my head that I'm prone to bad luck. And it probably has to do with my negative personality and my pessimistic attitude. But that's just me. I always see the negative in things. I was super sick for about 3 weeks - it started off with a small headache that became this booming sensation in my head. Which later lead to my doctor thinking I could have meningitis, frontal sinus headaches or muscle tension headaches. I was on 4 different medications that made me sick, sleepy and miserable. And all I could think about was how terrible it was and if it was meningitis, I was cursed. When I found out it wasn't meningitis, I was still slightly bitter and upset with being sick and of course, Israel always being optimistic, he told me I should be glad it wasn't and that hopefully, it would pass soon. Which it did and thankfully never came back.

Oh, and get this, the first day I went back to work, on my way to an evening work meeting, I got into a car accident - which leads to me having to write off my vehicle and sadly heading into the New Years without a vehicle. Honestly, all I could think about, as soon as it happened, was that I fucked up. I was so scared, I was nervous, my car was destroyed and I needed Israel because he always knows what to do and can always keep my calm. And of course, he kept me calm, told me to be glad I wasn't hurt and that this meant that I could look for a more reliable vehicle (which I've needed for a while). And then on top of that, I've had a hell of a time dealing with State Farm with my claim and it even got to the point where I had to write a complaint letter to see some sort of result! Which quickly showed results and great results - a payout that was more than I thought!

I just have a hard time looking for the good in things. I always pout and mope around and complain but really, Israel is right. I should be glad I didn't have meningitis or that I was injured in a car accident. I guess he balances me out and keeps me from being such a miserable human being!

This year was a big year for blogging for me. I had the opportunity to work with some amazing companies and brands and help build my name and my following. And it feels amazing. I never thought it would get to such a point for me - I started blogging as a hobby, something to do in my spare time (which seemed to be more than I have now). I am proud of myself, I've earned it and I've worked for it. I know there are times when things get hard and I take a break from blogging but we all need that break because let's be honest, we would killing ourselves! But I've been dedicated and I've been trying harder than ever to make my hobby fun and eventual for myself. And thank you to everyone who has helped me get to where I am. If you weren't for the followers, likes, and readers, I wouldn't be where I am today. So thank you, from the bottom of my heart!

For the first time in forever, I feel like my job is perfect. As much as I wanted to find a job in the field of Chemical Engineering Technology, I love my job. I have never worked in a place that felt like a second home, where everyone is so welcoming and open, where I'm not criticized for every decision I make and where I am finally appreciated. It's a great feeling when you get up and don't dread having to go into work, it feels relieving and for first time in my life, I have felt what it feels to love your job.

Thoughts Going Into 2018

2018 - another year to make all these resolutions that no one ever knows if they'll follow through with. But for me? Well, this year, I'm not going to hold myself to any resolution but simply work towards things that will better myself and my life.

This is a big issue for me. I'm such a spender, that it scares me at times and it's definitely something that I want to work on. I seem to say this all the time to myself yet it never seems to fall through. Even writing this, my stomach just turns and my heart aches. It's something I've always wanted to do and this year I promise myself it will be something I will do!

Family - Part 1
After being married for a year, the next step is to think about starting a family with little mini me's, right? I find this to be such a conflicting topic for me - I think I would be a great mom but I also feel like I'd fail because of things like not being able to save? Will I be able to provide for a child?! Will I be a loving mom?! How will that change Israel and me's relationship!? Will a child bring Israel and me apart?! Will Berkeley be good around children!? There are just all these things that make my stomach turn and it's hard to talk about because I don't know anyone thinking of having children. I get scared and nervous. I panic just thinking about it but it is something that I want to talk about and figure out with Israel. I know if we keep talking about it we will eventually find the answers I'm looking for.

Family - Part 2
My family seems to be growing and growing and I only hope that I can love everyone all equally, be understanding of all situations and try my hardest to love everyone for who they are. I have built relationships with my parents that I never had before, and it's satisfying knowing I can go to my parents and have a conversation with them. Just a conversation where you laugh, joke, talk about work, life or anything. I used to feel like I struggled to get to know my parents and now I confidently say that I no longer feel like that. I only hope my bonds I've made with everyone in my family only become greater - my parents, my sisters, all my in-laws.

I hope everyone has an amazing New Years! I hope everyone keeps goals and dreams alive this year and works to make them come true! See you guys in the New Year!

- The Cassie Paige
Photos by Israel & Accentuated Moments Photography


  1. your little mini video is so awesome love it and all the best for 2018 love

  2. Although you certainly had some traumatic experiences in year 2017, it sounds like the good experiences much more than made up for them. It's wonderful that you love your job, are welcomed there, are in a loving relationship, and had things turn out much better than you had feared they might. Your blogging is wonderful. Best wishes for conquering your anxieties, for having a wonderful year 2018, and for hopefully realising more of your dreams.


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