The Passion for Fashion

"Passion. It lies in all of us. Sleeping, waiting, and though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir. Open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us, guides us. Passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love, the clarity of hatred, the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we'd know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank. Without passion, we'd be truly dead."
― Joss Whedon


Wilfred Turtleneck from Aritzia (similar/similar) | Zara Distressed Jeans (similar/similar)
MWlfred Vest from Aritzia (similar) | Michael Kors Booties (similar/similar)

The Passion

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As I write this, I feel like I want to pull my hair out and cry a little. Sometimes blogging feels like such a chore and I just want to fucken quit. I feel like I hate everything about it - I hate having deadlines, have to write posts, how my photos turn out, how I fucken forget to change one setting on the camera, how I have to sit in front of my fucken laptop and edit the shit out of things. I want to scream and cry and just punch someone in the fucken face. And I know I'm upset and annoyed for some reason but I never want to feel like my posts are just half ass-ed because honestly, I work hard on it. I don't ever want to feel like I just did it to have something to post because I go out of my way to take photos, write my thoughts and ideas and share it with the world because I do love it (when the passion for it isn't eating me up inside) and it is my passion.

It kills me when I get to these points because previously I've stopped blogging and I lose interest. It's the worst feeling in the world because I feel like I've lost a part of myself.




My Rock

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I'm the luckiest girl in the world to havde a husband who will be there. As I huffed and puffed (or stewed as he called it), he kept asking me what was wrong, sat down next to me and fixed the problem for me.

I was just about to rip my hair out editing these photos because they were so yellow. When Israel and I took these photos, we didn't change the white balance so the photos were so yellow. And yellow = ugly to me. And that I started to get flustered and I didn't want this post to go out to just have a post! I didn't want to start on a new post. And I didn't want these photos to go to waste. So Israel, got on his computer, fixed them and here we are now.


I know sometimes I over stress but when I've got deadlines or I've got like 8 other posts just waiting to be written I stress because I'm falling so far behind. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. I'm a perfectionist with an OCD disorder. What do you do to make sure you don't fall in slump!? How to over come these feelings? Let me know below!

P.S. I love Coco's bubbletea. I'm honestly so addicted to he 3 Guys there. It's legit the only bubbletea I get!



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Photos by Israel