Who Am I?

Wednesday, January 10, 2018
"My identity was a big issue when I was a teenager, and I had a lot of questions, like: 'Who am I?' 'Who do I belong to?' But when I was still quite young, I decided that belonging is a tough process in life, and I'd better say I belonged to myself and the world rather than belonging to one nationality or another."
― Hiam Abbass

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Wilfred Jacket from Aritzia (similar/similar) | Wilfred Top from Aritzia (similar/similar)
Zara Jeans (similar/similar) | Kenneth Cole Booties (here/here) | Armani Exchange Belt (similar/similar)

Who Am I?

When I turned to Instagram to find some advice about knowing if there would ever be the right time to have a baby, I found that people appreciated that I was honest and open. I found that people were more interactive with me because I was being open with my life and the feedback just flooded in. And I feel like most of the time I lack that interaction with my followers and readers. I feel like I try to get on a personal level without getting personal. I've never really been that open with people about my life. I always felt people didn't need to know the details about me to know me, but how does someone really know you if they don't "really know you"?!

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Social Presence

Being on social media means having to be personal so people can relate. And I know that I lack that on my social media. I don't really talk about my family, friends, or what goes on during my daily life. I feel like I'm boring? But am I really that boring or do I just not want that showcased in my social media. I find that it's so hard to balance. There are so many social influences who make InstaStories daily about what they're up too and what's happening. I don't do that - I feel like what I do at home should be between me and my family. No one needs to know what I'm eating or who I'm with. But all social influencers do it. I just lack that and I sometimes feel like I'm falling behind because I don't do this. So how do you find a balance? I work like a 9 to 6 schedule and I just don't think talking about what I'm doing at work is any fun, or driving home and being stuck in traffic or even what Israel and I are going to eat for dinner. But maybe that's just me? Maybe I'm not cut out to be doing this!? I'm never really sure.

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I feel like at one point I tried to become more personal on here, and then somewhere down the road, I just starting rambling on about stuff to say stuff on my blog. But honestly, it's hard to sit down and try to write out so many blog posts and be personal about it. I think I just need better planning with my posts so not every post has to be personal posts? And how do I find a balance for social media, so people can understand me without following my everyday routines?

I've loved the way I've been carrying out my blog and Instagram but I feel like at some point I'm just going to get boring by just posting outfit photos and not allowing people to know the real me? I'm always at a crossroads with this.

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Photos by Israel