Awkward Human Being

"I find standing and posing for photos very awkward."
― Nicole Kidman

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Awkward

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I think I've always been an awkward person. That's why I sometimes wonder how I can even pose for pictures for blogging. Man, Israel must have had a really hard time trying to photograph me when I first started blogging 😂😂 I'm always so confused on where I should look, what I should do with my hands or if I should pretend that I'm actually doing some. But it's not even with posing for photos that I feel awkward! I'm awkward in social situations when I don't know people. I feel like my RBF comes out and instead of being myself, I become even more introverted and seem like a total jackass. I total lack the social skills when it comes to meeting new people or trying to keep up a conversation with acquaintances. I'm so socially awkward sometimes I cringe at the way I act around people.




How I Know I'm Socially Awkward

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There are just so many signs that point to me being such a socially awkward human being. Here are some to name a few:

1. I'm never quite sure how to act in social situations - especially when I meet new people.
2. Sometimes I just hear the words come out of my mouth and think "did I really just say that?!
3. I get anxious around people. I always feel like I'm gonna say something stupid or I won't be able to hold a conversation.
4. I never know how to engage in a conversation that I know nothing about so I just sit there awkwardly looking at everyone. Acting like I give a rat's ass about what's happening.
5. I'm too brutally honest in conversations that I feel like I'm a mood killer sometimes. But I don't know how to tone that down. I would rather someone know the truth that to lie to hold up a conversation.
6. I literally die at the thought of any public speaking. I feel like my life is going to end.
7. I cannot stand hugging people ... so if I stranger comes in for a hug, I literally pat them on the back and try to keep as far away as possible.

Honestly though, it doesn't bother me a bit with how awkward I am. I would rather sit at home with Israel and binge watch a TV show than have to worry about socializing with other people. I'm just so introverted. And I don't care!



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